Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Do You Have The Holy Spirit?

In the 9th chapter of the book of Romans, Paul makes it very clear that the idea of whether or not we have the Holy Spirit is a big deal.

"You, however, are controlled not by the sinful nature but by the Spirit, if the Spirit of God lives in you. And if anyone does not have the Spirit of Christ, he does not belong to Christ."

I just finished reading the 10th chapter of J.C. Ryle's "Old Paths," which is entitled "Holy Ghost." It was a good read, so good in fact, that I dare to make my second post in three days concerning it. I'm not going to quote the book directly, but instead, I'm going to elaborate in my own words and thoughts on Ryle's five points that he claims proves whether or not one has the Spirit of God. Ryle calls these the 'marks and evidences by which the presence of the Holy Ghost in a man's heart may be known.' This is extremely important for people everywhere to consider (see Romans 9:8 above). Note that by no means do I think that these five points can serve as a fail-proof test to see whether or not one has the Spirit. I think that would be putting God in a box, and he's not a God that fits in any box we can imagine. It's a good test nonetheless.

1.) Where the Holy Ghost is, there will always be deep conviction of sin and repentance for it.

If I could pick a "favorite" evidence, I'd pick this one. I honestly think that all growing Christians will be at war daily with the sin in their lives. The Holy Spirit will convict us of our sins, and there will be true repentance. When I look back at my life before Christ, the main difference I see is the lack of conviction before and the overflow of conviction after. Though I am a much better person now than I was ten years ago, I consider myself scum today and thought very highly of myself back then. This is the work of Holy Spirit in my life. God abhors sin, and the Holy Spirit will not let us walk comfortably in it if we are truly his.

2.) Where the Holy Ghost is, there will always be lively faith in Jesus Christ, as the only Savior.

The Holy Spirit had a lot to do with the life, death, and resurrection of Christ. The Scriptures make this clear. The Holy Trinity coexist is a beautiful harmony. There is no way one could have the Holy Spirit without a lively faith in Christ. What I want to dismiss is a flippant irreverent "faith" in a god or a deity or a higher power or a "man upstairs. " I'd also like to dismiss one who claims to know God but never acknowledges the life, death, and resurrection of Christ. If you look closely, you'll see this in the movies. While it isn't too uncommon for a character to acknowledge God in the movies (though this is becoming more rare), the mentioning of Jesus Christ in a reverent way is very uncommon, and I'm afraid it may be like that more and more with professing Christians. The Holy Spirit will not allow one of of his to get by without a lively faith in Christ.

3.) Where the Holy Ghost is, there will always be holiness of life and conversation.

The Holy Spirit is certainly in the business of sanctifying. He is also called the Spirit of holiness. One of the biggest misconceptions of Christianity in my opinion is this idea that Christ simply saved us of our past sins. By no means! Christ died not only to save us from sin but to free us from sin! The Holy Spirit has a tough job to do -- he is to make us more and more like Christ and work in us the power to be free from sin. Those who have the Spirit have this power, and it should be evident, though from my own experience, I can say that this part is pretty hard sometimes. Sanctification is one of those ideas that require a lot of effort on our part (but is really grace all along). The fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. Your soul would do well to measure yourself daily with the fruit of the Spirit to help determine his influence on your life. The Holy Spirit will leave no man untouched and unchanged.

4.) Where the Holy Ghost is, there will always be the habit of earnest private prayer.

Wow, Ryle must have had me and my struggling prayer life in mind when he wrote that one. He doesn't just mention that those who have the Spirit will be praying. Check out the words "habit" and "earnest" and "private." This one is tough...at least for me. I struggle here, and I'll admit it, but Ryle is in no way wrong on this one. The Holy Spirit has a lot more to do with prayer than we may think. He surely yearns for us to communicate with the Father, and he knows we need help. All the things that the Scriptures tell us to pray about add up fast. We have several examples of Christ in prayer as well. I am convinced that he who knows nothing of us this earnest private prayer knows not the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit "makes it as natural to a man to pray as it is to an infant to breathe; with the one difference, -- that the infant breathes without an effort, and the new-born soul prays with much conflict and strife."

5.) Where the Holy Ghost is, there will always be love and reverence for God's Word.

Ryle fifth point is a good one. The Word of God is certainly living and active. We also know that in the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was with God in the beginning. So obviously, since the Holy Spirit was there in the beginning, the Word is also important to him. The Holy Spirit causes a yearning for the Word -- whether it be reading your Bible, hearing the Word preached, understanding what we've heard, or recalling a memorized passage. If one doesn't have any desire for the Word of God, then he can be assured there is no Spirit abiding within.

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Again, I don't think there are the only five things to look for, and nor do I think all five will continuously be evident in each believer. But I thought the Ryle chapter was really well written and deserved a little more of my time. Perhaps someone out there on the world wide web will find it useful too.

Sunday, March 23, 2008

Finally Back for Easter

Well, I really took a lot of time off since my last post. I've probably lost all the readers I had by now - oh well, that's not that important to me (as this blog started as a private one). This fatherhood stuff is proving to be much more difficult that I imagined it would be. It's hard to find time to do anything, let alone time to sit down for 30-60 minutes for a blog post. But, this weekend went pretty well, and I'm going to try and carve out some time for a little post.

This may not come as a surprise, but I think I'm going to choose to elaborate on some song lyrics again, which is probably my favorite thing to do on here. I've been plodding through J.C. Ryle's "Old Paths" for the last few months, and it's a really good book, but it's one that's hard to write about without making very lengthy posts. So...let's get to the songs.

What I want to look at tonight is two small excerpts from two totally different songs, "Windows Of Thy Grace" (Red Mountain Music) and "I Know The Plans" (Waterdeep).

From "Windows of Thy Grace" ---
Haste my Beloved and remove,
These interposing days, interposing days;
Then shall my passions all be love,
And all my powers be praise, all my powers be praise.
From "I Know The Plans" ---
I know the plans I have for you
I know the things that I want for you to do
I know the plans I have for you
And it hurts sometimes to see you blind
The first excerpt gets me every time I hear it - no wonder the song finished #17 on my top 50 hymns list. I'm often not sure how well I know myself, but one thing I know for sure is that I'm a very passionate person, and it shows. I get fired up for sports like few in this world do and like few should. And there are plenty of other examples. But what I want to do as I write tonight (and if there are any readers, perhaps you could do the same) is to imagine what we would be like if all our passions all became love. What a beautiful line by Isaac Watts here... the same guy who wrote "When I Survey the Wondrous Cross," which we sang today in Easter service. The stanza cries out for God to remove the interposing days and that all passions be love and all powers be praise in our lives. This is a fallen world we live in; I see it every day in my own life unfortunately. But the thought of all my passions being love and all my powers being praise gets me excited. It should be like that some day! And I certainly should see more of that now. This song gets me not only yearning for the day that I'll be with Christ and out of my sinful body, but it gets me thinking about all the things I use my passions and powers on today that I shouldn't. Of course, then that gets me to thinking that God probably had a design for each and every unique thing about my person and personality, and he means for me to use them for the glory of God. And I often don't... bringing me to the next song excerpt, this one from a Waterdeep song way back in the day.

Of course this chorus comes from Jeremiah 29:11 - "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." And I fully believe that. But this song puts a light on that verse that I haven't always heard. Link to the full song lyrics This song brings up a few examples of people not using their passions for love and powers for praise and reminds me that God does have a plan for us and does have things he wants us to do, yet it probably hurts him to see us blind and disappointed when things don't turn out the way we want them to. When I hear this song (and I have a lot lately), I am reminded that there are a lot of things God wants me to be doing that I'm not and a lot of things that I am doing that he probably wouldn't want me to. It convicts me. God has a plan for all of us, myself included, and I think we miss out on great and glorious moments in this life when we choose the wide and easy path rather than the narrow one. It's something to think about anyway. And that's why I write. Hopefully I'll get myself thinking and changing and hopefully I can help get you thinking. Until next time...Happy Easter!

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

Some Never Get A Choice

Well, it's that time again -- the time in which American newspapers and televisions are focused on one thing in particular: politics. I used to be big into politics back in my high school days. But the older I get, the more and more I get dissatisfied with both parties. A man came by the house the other day giving me information about his beloved presidential candidate. When asked what issue most affects my family? I paused and said, "Quite frankly, I'll never vote for anyone who is pro-choice." So I've been thinking about abortion a lot lately...again. But have I been praying enough for the evil to end? No, not even close. It looks like John Piper has a lot to say about abortion lately too. I'm going to copy and paste his latest sermon below. But before you read that, take a moment at watch this video at Abort73.com. Pastor Piper plus the folks at Abort73.com can do a much better job than I can.

Abortion: The Innocent Blood of Our Sons and Daughters

January 27, 2008
By John Piper

Psalm 106:32-48

They angered him at the waters of Meribah, and it went ill with Moses on their account, 33 for they made his spirit bitter, and he spoke rashly with his lips. 34 They did not destroy the peoples, as the Lord commanded them, 35 but they mixed with the nations and learned to do as they did. 36 They served their idols, which became a snare to them. 37 They sacrificed their sons and their daughters to the demons; 38 they poured out innocent blood, the blood of their sons and daughters, whom they sacrificed to the idols of Canaan, and the land was polluted with blood. 39 Thus they became unclean by their acts, and played the whore in their deeds. 40 Then the anger of the Lord was kindled against his people, and he abhorred his heritage; 41 he gave them into the hand of the nations, so that those who hated them ruled over them. 42 Their enemies oppressed them, and they were brought into subjection under their power. 43 Many times he delivered them, but they were rebellious in their purposes and were brought low through their iniquity. 44 Nevertheless, he looked upon their distress, when he heard their cry. 45 For their sake he remembered his covenant, and relented according to the abundance of his steadfast love. 46 He caused them to be pitied by all those who held them captive. 47 Save us, O Lord our God, and gather us from among the nations, that we may give thanks to your holy name and glory in your praise. 48 Blessed be the Lord, the God of Israel, from everlasting to everlasting! And let all the people say, “Amen!” Praise the Lord.

Psalm 106 is a summary of the history of Israel with a focus on her repeated sins and God’s repeated judgment and mercy. Psalm 106 is a picture of the Old Testament in miniature. It cries out for something more final, more lasting. The final verses (vv. 47-48) say, “Save us, O Lord our God, and gather us from among the nations, that we may give thanks to your holy name and glory in your praise. Blessed be the Lord, the God of Israel, from everlasting to everlasting! And let all the people say, ‘Amen!’ Praise the Lord!”

Yes. And all that had been said before. Over and over, they called on the Lord to save them during the time of the judges, for example. And God did save them. He was merciful and gracious and slow to anger. But then over and over, they reverted to unbelief and disobedience. So the end of the psalm, just like the end of the Old Testament, cries out for something more. This psalm and the Old Testament itself are incomplete. They groan for something more. They point to the future. They are not ends in themselves. They are stories and books of promise.

Jesus: God’s Decisive Yes and Amen

And that is why the New Testament exists. Because the final, complete, decisive, lasting act of divine salvation happened when Jesus, the Messiah, came into the world. He was the final Adam (Romans 5:12-21), and the final prophet like Moses (Acts 3:22; 7:37), and the final Israel (Matthew 4:1-11), and the final high priest (Hebrews 7:23-24), and the final Passover sacrifice (1 Corinthians 5:7), and the final manna from heaven (John 6:31-32), and the final suffering servant of Isaiah 53 (Mark 10:45), and the final Son of Man of Daniel 7 (Matthew 24:30). His blood was the blood of the promised final new covenant in Jeremiah 31:31 (Luke 22:20). He therefore was the final, decisive Yes and Amen to all God’s promises (2 Corinthians 1:20).

So when we read the stories of the Old Testament like the one in Psalm 106 and we feel the oppressive weight of sin that never seems to have its final solution, we should think: It’s all pointing to Christ. This is not Christians reinterpreting the Jewish Scriptures. This is God revealing the completion of the Jewish Scriptures. And the point of the Jewish Scriptures and the long history of Israel was not in itself but in Christ.

God Has Come, His Name Is Jesus

Therefore, when this text ends today in verse 47 with the cry, “Save us, O Lord our God,” we should take it to mean: O Lord, God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob, rescue us from captivity wherever our enemies have the upper hand, and hasten the coming of the King, who will deliver us once for all from the worst of enemies, and make atonement for our sins once for all, and write his law on our hearts, so that we may fear him always and never rebel against him again.

And when we hear that cry, and understand that implication, we today should rejoice because he has come already. His name was Jesus. And he has revealed the mystery, long obscure in the Scriptures, that by his death and resurrection not only Jews but also all the nations of the world will be forgiven and justified and cleansed and reconciled by faith in him alone.

The Banner of the Cross

In other words, flying over this psalm and all its horrors and failures that are so relevant for our modern age, is the banner of Jesus Christ as the final Savior of the world who has died for sins and conquered guilt and condemnation and death and hell—for everyone who cries out from the heart, “Save me, O Lord my God.”

Flying over this message about abortion is the banner of the cross of Christ. Its color is crimson. Because the blood of Christ takes away the sin of abortion and the sin of not caring about it. So I don’t just end today with the call for repentance and the offer of forgiveness. I begin with it. I want it to hover over your head while I walk you through this text.

The Sins of Israel

Let’s get the bigger picture of the text and then focus on the sacrifice of innocent blood. First there are the sins of Israel, then the anger and judgment of God, and then the cry for salvation. First the sins:

Verse 32: At Meribah, Israel murmured against Moses because there was no water, and they provoked Moses to strike the rock instead of speaking to it, and God was angry that Moses did not sanctify his name by believing him (Numbers 20:11-12).

Verse 34: The Israelites did not destroy the peoples of Canaan as God had commanded them. This shows that the opposition to sacrificing the children we will see in a moment is not owing to a general opposition to killing. There was a place for killing. And the explanation for this horrific moment in Israel’s history is given in Deuteronomy 9:4, where God says,

Do not say in your heart, after the Lord your God has thrust them out before you, “It is because of my righteousness that the Lord has brought me in to possess this land,” whereas it is because of the wickedness of these nations that the Lord is driving them out before you.

In that period of Israel’s history, God wielded them for his judgments. We may not follow them in this kind of judgment because things have fundamentally changed with the coming of Jesus. Jesus said, “My kingdom is not of this world. If my kingdom were of this world, my servants would have been fighting” (John 18:36). But the point I am making is that God’s anger at the killing of infants is not owing to a sentimental rejection of violence or physical force. There is another reason why God opposes it. We’ll come back to that.

Verse 35: “They mixed with the nations and learned to do as they did.” The root issue here is not intermarriage. That’s what we focused on last year in the racial harmony message. The issue is that mixing meant learning to do what the pagan nations did.

Verse 36 gives the general statement of what happened. And verse 37 gives the specific sin that expresses the corruption best. Verse 36: “They served their idols, which became a snare to them.” This was the overarching reason for God’s prohibition of mingling with the pagan nations. It led to idolatry—the abandonment of the true God and the worship of idols. And these idols, the psalm says, became a “snare.” They were a trap that led to their destruction.

Then verse 37-39 give the specific sinful behavior that this idolatry led to. “They sacrificed their sons and their daughters to the demons; they poured out innocent blood, the blood of their sons and daughters, whom they sacrificed to the idols of Canaan, and the land was polluted with blood. Thus they became unclean by their acts, and played the whore in their deeds.”

The Anger and Judgment of God

This is very strong language. This is God’s language. He is very angry. Verse 40-41: “Then the anger of the Lord was kindled against his people, and he abhorred his heritage; he gave them into the hand of the nations, so that those who hated them ruled over them.” Idolatry led to a snare and the snare was the sacrificing of their own children in religious rituals and these rituals were spiritually whore-like in God’s sight and the anger of the Lord was kindled and judgment fell.

We need to feel the horror of this language: “sacrifice,” “demons,” “innocent blood,” “polluted,” “whore,” “anger of the Lord,” “the Lord abhorred his heritage.” We need to feel the force of this so that when we use such language today we do not communicate, any more than the psalmist did, that there is no hope for the guilty. That is the most amazing thing in the psalm.

The Cry for Salvation

Verse 44: “Nevertheless, he looked upon their distress, when he heard their cry. For their sake he remembered his covenant, and relented according to the abundance of his steadfast love.” Amazing grace, how sweet the sound that saved a wretch like me. So we need to hear the horrible language so that the grace that comes will sound as amazing as it is.

And just like the psalmist looked child sacrifice full in the face, so today we need to study abortion. We need the raw facts—just as raw as the language of this psalm. We need to watch the videos over at Abort73, and we need to look at beautiful pictures of the unborn. We need the statistics of over 40 million babies killed by abortion since 1973 just in our own country, with 90% of the abortion clinics in urban centers, and therefore wiping out massive numbers of minorities (over half of all abortions) with a kind of ethnic cleansing that pro-choice people cannot dare to think about. We need to know the procedures (suction-aspiration, dilation and curettage, saline abortion, intact dilation and extraction, RU-486, intrauterine cranial decompression, or partial birth abortion).

Some Sins Need Raw Language

The psalm is as raw as it could get before photography and DVD. The point is: There are some sins that cannot be comprehended without raw language or raw pictures. I once read in the Star-Tribune that if all Americans could be made to watch a live execution (electric chair or lethal injection), capital punishment would be abandoned. I don’t know if that is true. But if it is, the same thing applies all the more to abortion. If we were made to watch a doctor pull off the little baby’s legs and arms one by one and place them on the table like a dentist removing cotton from your mouth—if all Americans were made to see what it really is, the pro-life goal of abortion being unthinkable (not just illegal) would be much nearer.

Four Parallels with Abortion

So the psalm is raw when it comes to child sacrifice. There are at least four parallels with abortion.

1) It Is Called Sacrifice

One is that it is called “sacrifice.” Verse 37: “They sacrificed their sons and their daughters.” Sacrifice means that you give up something ordinarily considered valuable (a sheep or a bull) to gain something better—usually from a deity. Abortion in America is not done consciously with any desire to get blessing from a deity. But it is done to gain something “better” than the baby—that is what the whole debate is about. Is the gain greater than the loss? We need to be sure to see it in those terms: The life of a child is being sacrificed for something. What that “something” is defines the barbarity of our culture. I say that knowing full well how unimaginably difficult many unplanned pregnancies are. I do not make light of that. The issue is: How precious is the child? And will we trust God to make a way? This is what crisis pregnancy centers are devoted to.

2) They Are Sons and Daughters

Second, the child sacrifice in the psalm is described as the sacrifice of our sons and daughters. Verse 37: “They sacrificed their sons and their daughters.” He could have said “children.” But he says “sons and daughters.” This draws attention to two things. 1) They were sexually different. They were little boys and girls. And 2) they were family. This baby that is being sacrificed is family. And so it is with abortion. It is always a little girl or a little boy. And it is always family.

3) There Was Innocent Blood

Third, the psalm calls the sacrifice “innocent blood.” Verse 38: “They poured out innocent blood, the blood of their sons and daughters.” This is the difference between the Canaanites who are to be punished and the babies who are to be protected. This is not a statement about original sin or the lack of it. This is the ordinary legal statement that we all depend on in court: Did I do anything to deserve the punishment other people are about to execute on me? Among other people babies are innocent. They do not deserve to be mistreated by other human beings.

God himself has an absolute right to give life and take it. And we may be sure that if he takes the little ones, he deals with them according to what they could know (Romans 1:18-20). I believe they are saved. But we today have no right to take their lives. In relation to us, they are innocent. And we are guilty if we take their life.

(I insert here a qualification so you will know where I stand. There is no time to develop it fully. If God is already taking a baby’s life inside his mother—through some catastrophic anomaly or mishap, and if it is clear that the baby cannot live outside the womb and that leaving the child will imperil the mother’s life—under those circumstances I do not think we sin against the baby or God by taking the baby and saving the mother. But that is not the case in 99+% of the abortions.)

4) It Is to Demons

Fourth, the psalm says that this innocent blood is sacrificed to demons and to idols. Verses 37-38: “They sacrificed their sons and their daughters to the demons; they poured out innocent blood, the blood of their sons and daughters, whom they sacrificed to the idols of Canaan.” In 1 Corinthians 10:19-20, Paul deals with this connection between idols and demons. He says, “What do I imply then? That food offered to idols is anything, or that an idol is anything? No, I imply that what pagans sacrifice they offer to demons and not to God. I do not want you to be participants with demons.”

In other words, Paul sees behind all idols not any true God, but only a world of demons that promote idolatry and therefore, without the worshippers even knowing about it, these demons receive tribute from their sacrifice. Two years ago, a group of Catholics and Protestants produced a document called “That They Might Have Life.” In it, they said this about abortion:

The blindness of so many to this moral atrocity has many sources but is finally to be traced to the seductive ways of evil advanced by Satan. Jesus says, “He was as murderer from the beginning, and has nothing to do with the truth, because there is no truth in him. When he lies, he speaks according to his own nature, for he is a liar and the father of lies” (John 8:44).1

I think that is right. Which means that the sacrifice of our sons and daughters today is in a very true and profound sense a sacrifice to demons. The religious part of paganism may have fallen away in our modern Western world. The devil does it that way in today’s secular world. Otherwise, he would be laughed off the stage. And of course he wants me to be laughed at, not himself. So it all appears very secular, very rational, very non-religious, very high-sounding, when in truth it is very demonic.

Abortion: Sacrificing Our Sons and Daughters to Demons

It is the sacrificing of our sons and daughters to demons. And someday we will see this. And we will be as amazed that it could have endured so long as we are that the enslavement of Africans lasted as long as it did. The issue is just as clear as that one was. And we are just as blind today as they were then. The big difference is that the babies can’t run away. The underground railroad is entirely dependent on you, not them.

The strength to stand up and make a difference in this cause comes not mainly from the raw horrors of abortion, but from the amazing grace of verses 44-45: “Nevertheless [that is, in spite of sacrificing their children to demons], he looked upon their distress, when he heard their cry. For their sake he remembered his covenant, and relented according to the abundance of his steadfast love.” This is what Jesus Christ came to achieve for all who will receive it.

Take Up the Challenge

I pray that the horrors of abortion and the glory of God’s grace will move you to take up the challenge of prayer on the back of the worship folder and to extend yourself in other practical ways for life, both temporal and eternal. Amen.

Give justice to the weak and the fatherless;
maintain the rights of the afflicted and the destitute.
Rescue the weak and the needy;
deliver them from the hand of the wicked.
(Psalm 82:3-4)

For free resources, visit the website: DesiringGod.org.

Sunday, January 20, 2008

The Heavy-Laden's Top 50 Hymns

Wow...where to begin? My wife has already made fun of the fact that I literally spent hours making this list. That's alright. I'm passionate about many things, and great God-glorifying music is at the top of the list. The world should know that hymns are available today that are not only biblical and God-honoring but also fantastic to listen to. I know there are many great songs that I left out. It was hard to trim the list to 50. See two posts below for how I came up with my rankings. The system is surely flawed, and newer songs probably have an advantage in the replayability category. Like I said before, everything is completely arbitrary. If I didn't like how a guy sings, then the song suffered.

Ranking) Hymn Title / Artist / Album / Score

50) Why Should I Fear? / Red Mountain Church / This Breaks My Heart of Stone / 87
49)
Isaiah 40 / Auburn RUF / Love Unknown / 87
48)
There Is A Land Of Pure Delight / Red Mountain Church / This Breaks My Heart of Stone / 87
47)
Grace Upon Grace / Sandra McCracken / The Builder and the Architect / 88
46)
Out Of The Deep I Call / Auburn RUF / Love Unknown / 88
45)
Jesus Whispers / Red Mountain Church / The Gadsby Project / 88
44)
Jesus, Thou Joy Of Loving Hearts / Red Mountain Church / Depth of Mercy / 89
43)
Beneath The Cross Of Jesus / Derek Webb & Sandra McCracken / Indelible Grace V/ 89
42)
Pearly Gates / Red Mountain Church / Heaven / 89
41)
What Wondrous Love Is This / Matthew Smith / Indelible Grace II / 89

40)
Depth Of Mercy / Red Mountain Church / Depth Of Mercy / 90
39)
She Must And Shall Go Free / Sandra McCracken / Indelible Grace III / 90
38)
Go To Dark Gethsemane / Sandra McCracken / Indelible Grace V / 91
37)
The Gospel Brings Tidings / Red Mountain Church / Help My Unbelief / 91
36)
Face To Face / Matthew Perryman Jones/ Indelible Grace V / 91
35)
Lord, Dissolve My Frozen Heart / Red Mountain Church / Help My Unbelief / 91
34)
Nothing But The Blood / Matthew Smith / All I Owe / 91
33)
Abiding City / Sandra McCracken / The Builder and the Architect / 91
32)
Come Ye Sinners / Matthew Smith / Even When My Heart is Breaking / 92
31)
Jesus, I Am Resting / Matthew Smith / All I Owe / 92

30)
Arise, My Soul, Arise / Matthew Smith / Indelible Grace I / 92
29)
God Be Merciful To Me / Jars of Clay / Redemption Songs / 92
28)
Friend Of Sinners / Red Mountain Church / The Gadsby Project / 92
27)
I Need Thee Every Hour / Sarah Catherine Brooks / Indelible Grace I / 92
26)
Come Ye Disconsolate / Rachel Briggs / Indelible Grace IV / 92
25)
And Can It Be / Sandra McCracken / Indelible Grace I / 92
24)
Laden With Guilt And Full Of Fears / Sandra McCracken / Indelible Grace II / 93
23)
O Love That Will Not Let Me Go / Sandra McCracken / Indelible Grace I / 93
22)
Jesus, Lover Of My Soul / Red Mountain Church / Depth of Mercy / 93
21)
Come Thy Fount Of Every Blessing / Matthew Smith / All I Owe / 93

20)
Weary Of Earth, Myself And Sin / Red Mountain Church / Help My Unbelief / 93
19)
All I Owe / Matthew Smith / Even When My Heart is Breaking / 93
18)
Be Thou My Vision / Matthew Smith / Even When My Heart is Breaking / 93
17)
Windows Of Thy Grace / Red Mountain Church / This Breaks My Heart of Stone / 93
16)
Sometimes A Light Surprises / Derek Webb / Indelible Grace II / 93
15)
This Breaks My Heart of Stone / Red Mountain Church / This Breaks My Heart of Stone / 94
14)
The Love Of Christ Is Rich And Free / Sandra McCracken / The Builder and the Architect / 94
13)
My Jesus, I Love Thee / Red Mountain Church / Depth of Mercy / 94
12)
His Love Can Never Fail / Derek Webb / Indelible Grace IV / 94
11)
Help My Unbelief / Red Mountain Church / Help My Unbelief / 95

10)
Come Heavy Laden / Red Mountain Church / This Breaks My Heart of Stone / 96
9)
In The Secret Of His Presence / Sandra McCracken / The Builder and the Architect / 96
8)
No Sweeter Subject / Red Mountain Church / The Gadsby Project / 96
7)
A Debtor To Mercy Alone / Sandra McCracken / Indelible Grace I / 96
6)
Whatever My God Ordains Is Right / Matthew Perryman Jones / Indelible Grace I / 96
5)
Rock Of Ages / Sandra McCracken / The Builder and the Architect / 96
4)
Abide With Me / Matthew Perryman Jones / Indelible Grace V / 98
3)
There Is A Fountain Filled With Blood / Red Mountain Church / Depth of Mercy / 98
2)
Thy Mercy, My God / Sandra McCracken / The Builder and the Architect / 98
1) Jesus, I Long For Thee / Red Mountain Church / The Gadsby Project / 102

The Hymn CD List

In the creation of The Heavy-Laden's Top 50 Hymns list, I struggled with the question - "What qualifies as a hymn?" Technically, the definition is much more broader than the one I use. Most hymn definitions are simply "a song praising God." Well, if that was the criterion I used, I'd need 100,000 more CDs to listen to. So I narrowed it down. Plus, I think there is a lyrical style difference between what I would call a hymn and what I would call a praise song. So, with that in mind, I also took a couple more tough stances: 1.) any hymn ranked must be on a CD that contains primarily other hymns, ruling out great ones such as Psalm 131 by Waterdeep, and 2.) I must own the hymn on CD, which unfortunately probably rules out some great ones, but I can't rank what I don't have. So...here are the CDs that I used to make the rankings that will follow this post:

Indelible Grace I
Indelible Grace II - Pilgrim Days
Indelible Grace III - For all the Saints
Indelible Grace IV - Beams of Heaven
Indelible Grace V - Wake Thy Slumbering Children
Red Mountain Church - Depth of Mercy
Red Mountain Church - Heaven
Red Mountain Church - The Gadsby Project
Red Mountain Church - Help My Unbelief
Red Mountain Church - This Breaks My Heart of Stone
Sandra McCracken - The Builder and the Architect
Matthew Smith - Even When My Heart is Breaking
Matthew Smith - All I Owe
Matthew Smith - My Song Is Love Unknown
Auburn RUF - Love Unknown
Jars Of Clay - Redemption Songs

While I may be missing some good ones, I feel confident that the above list encapsulates the very best of what is offered today. If anyone knows of a CD I should add to my collection that fits the lyrical style of music in the CDs above, feel free to comment.

Saturday, January 12, 2008

Judgment Day Is Coming

Lest you think this post may actually be about the upcoming judgment day of Christ, it's not. It's a much lighter subject. A couple of things before I get going: 1.) Nolan's blog has been updated. 2.) Sorry I haven't posted in so long. Christmas traveling plus baby care makes it hard to get away sometime.

So what's this post about? I'm currently chilling in my home, just me and my new MP3 player, listening to all my hymns and rating them for my upcoming rankings (that frankly are for my own amusement as an excuse to use Excel at home). But nonetheless, it's only fair for my millions and millions of readers plus those who sing the songs to know how the songs will be judged. So I will explain myself now and hopefully get the rankings out no later than the end of next weekend.

Each song is rated on a 100 point scale - based on 6 categories (but with a chance for bonus points). The categories are lyrics (25 points), vocals (25 points), music (20 points), replayability (15 points), sound (10 points), and depth (5 points).

One bonus point is rewarded for each category, for the top song in that category. For example, the song that I say has the best lyrics gets the 25 points plus 1 bonus point. Songs will also be rewarded one bonus point for including the phrase "heavy-laden." Please note that I am by no means a music expert and all ratings are completely arbitrary.

Lyrics (25 Points): This is probably the most important thing considered in a good hymn. Let me perfectly clear here. Almost every song I listen to has great lyrics or I probably wouldn't be listening to it. With that said, I might give a song a 20/25 in lyrics, but it may still have good lyrics. There has to be some separation between songs here. What I'm looking for is first and foremost a biblical and God-glorifying song. Also, I like when the song lyrics aren't simply repetitive but have meaningful verses to go along with the chorus. A few well placed lines or a few great unique word choices may go a long way to a great rating. Sometimes, stripping lyrics from the Bible isn't even enough! I like originality too. Song with the best lyrics and that will receive one bonus point: A Debtor To Mercy Alone, Sandra McCracken, Indelible Grace I.

Vocals (25 Points): Wow, if you knew how bad of a vocalist I am, you wouldn't put much stock into what I say here. You know the guy on American Idol that sings so bad it makes the show and everyone makes fun of him? Yeah, that's me. But, I have an ear, and I like to think I know good vocals when I hear them. And since this is my blog, I get to judge the vocals too! It's probably unfair to most of the vocalists because I know what Ashley Spurling of Red Mountain Music sounds like. She's the best - hands down. And I heard her sing at my church once too. Unreal. Every song she sings as the lead vocalist will receive 25 points. There are a handful of others that get a 25, but for the most part, everyone is judged with her songs in mind. Songs that are more difficult to sing get that consideration. Song with the best vocals and that will receive one bonus point: Jesus, I Long For Thee, Red Mountain Church, The Gadsby Project.

Music (20 Points): I have a hard time with this one. Much like the vocals category, I am completely unqualified to judge what "good" music. I was the only kid in my 4th grade class to not try out for band. My reasoning? They didn't have the electric guitar..which sounded good to me, and I never gave it a chance. With that said, most of the songs get a rating in between 17-20 depending on what I think sounds the best. It's pretty much that simple. The fact that some of these guys wrote the music to these obscure lyrics just blows my mind. To me, that's like someone telling me that Albert Pujols batted .327 last year and having me reconstruct every pitch he saw from scratch. Impossible. So let's not dwell on the music too much. What is clear to me is that I favor the style of music from the Red Mountain Music CDs a little over the Indelible Grace CDs (by two biggest sources of music, 10 CDs in total). Song with the best music and that will receive bonus point: Come Heavy Laden, Red Mountain Church, This Breaks My Heart of Stone.

Replayability (15 Points)
: Yeah, I don't even think replayability is a word. But it means a lot to me when I rank these songs. When I make a top 50 list, I am seriously considering a desert island type of scenario -- that if I had only 50 hymns to listen to the rest of my life potentially, what 50 would I choose? Songs that received a 14 or 15 in this category, I can literally listen to 30 times in a row with getting tired of it. And I can listen to them every day without getting tired of the chorus nor having a desire to skip to the next song. I think this category really shows my preference and starts separating the best from the good. Some hymns got docked here because I have noticed myself skipping over them from time to time. Song with the best replayability and that will receive one bonus point: Jesus, I Long For Thee, Red Mountain Church, The Gadsby Project.

Sound (10 Points)
: Ah, the joys of my new Sony Walkman! The sound quality on those are great by the way. This category may be kind of lame, but I use it to separate two types of songs: those with the wow factor and those with the what? factor. Some songs simply have a great sound to them (which is usually a factor of the vocals and the music). Some songs have a weird combination of music and vocals or some might just not have the sound quality as others. Some songs are a little hard to hear clearly. This is only worth 10 points, and most songs pulled a 9. I think newer CDs have an unfair advantage here, but it's alright. Sometimes, the vocals are so good that any decent music causes a great sound. Song with the best sound and that will receive one bonus point: Jesus, I Long For Thee, Red Mountain Church, The Gadsby Project.

Depth (5 Points): This might be confusing. Sometimes, a song just doesn't have a lot of depth. Perhaps it's only one verse and a chorus, or perhaps the meaning isn't really that deep. So I can kill two birds with one stone. Really short songs just don't have the impact they need to be high on the top 50 list. Songs that just scratch the surface don't either. Here's where I can separate some songs. Most songs will get a 4 here...with a few 3s here and there. A few of the really deep songs will get a 5. Song with the most depth and that will receive one bonus point: In the Secret of His Presence, Sandra McCracken, The Builder and the Architect.

Am I crazy for giving songs with "heavy laden" in the lyrics an extra bonus point? Yeah probably, but like I said before, this is mainly being done for my own amusement. One of these days, maybe people will start sending me free hymn CDs to listen to.

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Nolan's Blog & More New Music

Unfortunately, this is going to be a short post...and it may be my last post until the new year. I'm leaving for Illinois tomorrow and won't return home from Kentucky until December 30th. One of the things I'll be working on from now until then is my new top hymns list, anchored by the fact that I received the newest Red Mountain Music CD on Friday. It's another great CD that I would highly recommend. The songs I like the best so far are "This Breaks My Heart Of Stone," "Come Heavy Laden," and "Windows Of Thy Grace." The top hymns list will be at least 50 songs long, and I am even going to use a spreadsheet. I'll be ranking the songs on various criteria, which I will share shortly.

Also, my son Nolan has started his own blog to put up pictures for anyone interested. As he gets older, perhaps he'll share some cool stories about his days. For now, his days are pretty simple: eat, sleep, lay dung, cry, and repeat.

Friday, December 07, 2007

Indelible Grace V Arrives!

Monday through Thursday, all the same. Fatiguing nights, long days at work, a tired wife, and a crying baby...and no new Indelible Grace CD. I preordered a copy of their newest work of art as soon as I could and have been eagerly been anticipating its arrival since. Finally, today, Friday, my mailbox was blessed with the sight of a brown padded envelope that contained my long awaited compact disc of grace. Indelible Grace V, Wake Thy Slumbering Children has arrived!

So while I stay up late listening to the songs and reading the lyrics when my body is screaming for sleep, I couldn't help myself but to share a song that could very well bust into my top 10 when I redo my top hymn list early next year.

Hymn Spotlight - "Abide With Me"

Song Title: Abide With Me
Artist: Matthew Perryman Jones
Album: IG5 - Wake Thy Slumbering Children
Writers: Henry Lyte, Justin Smith

Abide with me, fast falls the eventide
The darkness deepens, Lord with me abide
When other helpers, fail and comforts flee
Help of the helpless, abide with me

Thou on my head, in early youth didst smile
And though rebellious, and perverse meanwhile
Thou has not left me, though I oft left thee
On to the close Lord, abide with me

I need Thy presence, every passing hour
What but Thy grace can foil the tempter’s power?
Who, like Thyself, my guide and stay can be?
Through cloud and sunshine, Lord, abide with me

I fear no foe, with Thee at hand to bless
Ills have no weight, and tears no bitterness
Where is thy sting death? Where grave thy victory?
I triumph still, abide with me.

Hold Thou Thy cross, before my closing eyes
Shine through the gloom, and point me to the skies
Heaven’s morning breaks, and earth’s vain shadows flee
In life, in death, O Lord, abide with me.

What's interesting to me right away is that this song underwent a small rewrite when it joined the Indelible Grace CD. I believe the second verse has been totally rewritten by Justin Smith with the rest of the song (for the most part) being written by Henry Lyte in 1847.

Why this hymn: While I totally expected the three Sandra McCracken songs to catch my ear at first, it wasn't those songs (though they sound pretty good too) that caused me to break out the lyrics for the first time. I've probably never been so excited to receive a CD in the mail as I was today. Wake Thy Slumbering Children is a clever title, and as my own small child makes little noises in his slumber as I write this, I am reminded of what a wretch I've been spiritually since joining the ranks of fatherhood. Abide With Me is a great hymn, and while I can't say for sure due to the fact I haven't listened to the CD 30 times yet, it might be the best song on this new CD. After only two listens, I felt a tear or two stream down my face. Matthew Perryman Jones is easily one of my favorite singers (and one I've actually met). His vocals, deep lyrics, and excellent music set this hymn apart.

Why I like it: This hymn does my soul well (to steal a line from beloved writer J.C. Ryle). What it cries out to me is of course something I already know. But God invented music for a reason didn't he? The beautiful things in this world were created for us to know God more. What this hymn communicates to me is that abiding with Christ is my lifeline. I must do it. I can't survive in this world by myself. Though there are many great things to help us along the way...I'm thinking music, books, friends, spouses, parents, movies, sermons, etc....nothing can compare to abiding with our Lord. Christ is light in the darkness. Christ is there when the helpers fail. Though I have oft left him, he has never left me. Only his grace can free me from sin and fight Satan, for I am powerless to fight on my own. Regardless of my circumstances, I will always triumph, for nothing can separate me from the love of Christ. Any song that puts these thoughts in my head is worthing of a spotlight. Plus, it sounds great.

Related Scripture: John 15:1-17, 1 John 2:23-29, 1 Corinthians 15:54-58

Favorite Line: "Thou has not left me, though I oft left thee; On to the close Lord, abide with me." Alright, so I feel sort of dirty picking a line from the hymn written in 2007, but hey, I really liked it. The whole song is packed with great lyrics. But lines like these always get to me. For I know that my soul wanders all the time. I know I have hours and days in which I don't abide with Christ at all. While my soul hates those times, they happen, and it's a great comfort to know that Christ does not leave me. A truth like this can be repeated to me over and over, and it's sweet every time. What joy there is in knowing that my redeemer sustains and keeps me as his own! And he will until the book of my life closes. Amen.


The Life Of Paul -- Through Song and Scripture

So it's quite obvious - I like hymns a lot. I'm sure if a statistical analysis was done of this blog, the topic of "hymns" would rise to the top of the list of my most blogged about topics. What isn't so well known is that Paul of Tarsus liked some of these very same songs. In this very different post, I will attempt to write a fictional account of the life of Paul using hymns and songs.

Here's the scene...Saul, a persecutor of The Way, is on a road leading to a place called Damascus, is suddenly interrupted by a unique visitor...

As he neared Damascus on his journey, suddenly a light from heaven flashed around him. He fell to the ground and heard a voice say to him, "Saul, Saul, why do you persecute me?"

"Who are you, Lord?" Saul asked.

"I am Jesus, whom you are persecuting," he replied. "Now get up and go into the city, and you will be told what you must do."

The men traveling with Saul stood there speechless; they heard the sound but did not see anyone. Saul got up from the ground, but when he opened his eyes he could see nothing. So they led him by the hand into Damascus. For three days he was blind, and did not eat or drink anything.

Whoa..wait a minute. Paul was blind for three days and did eat or drink anything? Are you kidding me? That's a long time to go without water. What on earth was on his mind? Well, considering Jesus and all that he had done to the followers of The Way, Paul was reminded of a song he heard, but was it the Sandra McCracken version or the Caedmon's Call version of the hymn that he had in his mind? So he sang "Laden With Guilt" to describe how he was feeling...and how suddenly all of the Scriptures that he had memorized began to make sense. Saul could finally see how he had fallen short his whole life that he thought he had lived so well - alas, the guilt and fear and hopelessness of a life in the grip of sin raced through his mind, and he starts to see the hope that is in Christ.
Laden with guilt and full of fears
I fly to Thee my Lord
And not a glimpse of hope appears
But in Thy written word
The volumes of my Father's grace
Does all my griefs assuage
Here I behold my Savior's face
In every page

This is the field where hidden lies
The pearl of price unknown
That merchant is divinely wise
Who makes the pearl his own
Here consecrated water flows
To quench my thirst of sin
Here the fair tree of knowledge grows
No danger dwells within

This is the judge that ends the strife
Where wit and reason fail
My guide to everlasting life
Throughout this gloomy vale
O may Thy counsels, mighty God
My roving feet command
Nor I forsake the happy road
That leads to Thy right hand
But the Lord said to Ananias, "Go! This man is my chosen instrument to carry my name before the Gentiles and their kings and before the people of Israel. I will show him how much he must suffer for my name."

Then Ananias went to the house and entered it. Placing his hands on Saul, he said, "Brother Saul, the Lord—Jesus, who appeared to you on the road as you were coming here—has sent me so that you may see again and be filled with the Holy Spirit." Immediately, something like scales fell from Saul's eyes, and he could see again. He got up and was baptized, and after taking some food, he regained his strength.

Wow! What a transformation. Three days without food or water or sight and now this! How could a mere man have such resilience and determination to get right with God? Sometime after this awakening, Paul realizes a great truth - he was God's chosen instrument to carry the name of Christ to the Gentiles. After all he had done, God has chosen to use him. What a debt he owed God that he could not repay. But he would certainly do his best to live his life for the one who died...and he could be seen skipping along the roads singing this song about how God opened his eyes (Who Made Me to Know You - Sovereign Grace Music)...
Who made me to know You, but You
When dead in sin You gave me new life
Now my heart is filled with love for You, Jesus

Father, thank You for Your Spirit’s work in me
For opening my eyes to the Christ of Calvary
Jesus, You gave Your life in exchange for mine
Now I will live for You who died, Jesus

You placed a crown of grace on my head
You covered me in robes of righteousness
Forever I will always be Yours, Jesus
And he definitely followed through on his promise -- Paul certainly lived his life for the one who died for him. All along, God didn't forget his promise to Ananias, "I will show him how much he must suffer for my name." And suffer for his name he did...

"Therefore I do not run like a man running aimlessly; I do not fight like a man beating the air. No, I beat my body and make it my slave so that after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified for the prize."

"Are they servants of Christ? (I am out of my mind to talk like this.) I am more. I have worked much harder, been in prison more frequently, been flogged more severely, and been exposed to death again and again. Five times I received from the Jews the forty lashes minus one. Three times I was beaten with rods, once I was stoned, three times I was shipwrecked, I spent a night and a day in the open sea, I have been constantly on the move. I have been in danger from rivers, in danger from bandits, in danger from my own countrymen, in danger from Gentiles; in danger in the city, in danger in the country, in danger at sea; and in danger from false brothers."


Is it any wonder that Paul once even wrote this...?

"I eagerly expect and hope that I will in no way be ashamed, but will have sufficient courage so that now as always Christ will be exalted in my body, whether by life or by death. For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain. If I am to go on living in the body, this will mean fruitful labor for me. Yet what shall I choose? I do not know!"

What isn't all that well known is what song Paul was often heard singing when he wrote the book of Philippians (Weary of Earth, Myself, and Sin - Red Mountain Music)...
Weary of earth, myself and sin,
Dear Jesus set me free,
And to Thy glory take me in,
For there I long to be.

Let a poor laborer here below,
When from his toil set free;
To rest and peace eternal go;
For there I long to be.

Burdened, dejected and oppressed,
Ah! Whither shall I flee,
But to Thy arms for peace and rest?
For there I long to be.

Empty, polluted, dark and vain,
Is all this world to me;
May I the better world obtain;
For there I long to be.
But of course this story has a happy ending. Several people claim that the song Paul sung as he was dying was none other than "Pearly Gates" by Red Mountain Music...

Love divine, so great and wondrous,
Deep and mighty, pure, sublime!
Coming from the heart of Jesus,
Just the same through tests of time.

He the pearly gates will open,
So that I may enter in;
For He purchased my redemption,
And forgave me all my sin.

Like a dove when hunted, frightened,
As a wounded fawn was I;
Brokenhearted, yet He healed me,
He will heed the sinner's cry.

Love divine, so great and wondrous,
All my sins He then forgave!
I will sing His praise forever,
For His blood, His power to save.

In life's eventide, at twilight,
At His door I'll knock and wait;
By the precious love of Jesus,
I shall enter Heaven's gate.

Sorry, but I never did find out what the thorn in his side was :(